#ive been thinking a lot about that video i watched and ive been looking at the papers themselves
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do you have any advice on like getting better with writing?
hey! i definitely do!! iâve talked about this before but i have a lot of new readers, so ill start off by saying iâve been writing for my entire life, and im 30 so thats a lot of years. if youâre a new writer, trust me i used to be there and good god if you guys could see the stuff i published in old fandoms đ really, really bad haha
i only say that because i by no means consider myself a great writer, there are fic writers in this space alone that iâm always so floored by and look up toâŚ. but people have been very kind about my writing style and itâs something that took time to develop itâs not something i just âhadâ. outside of fic, i was a literature and creative writing major, and got very used to writing and workshopping pieces.
now! onto some actual advice â
1. read a lot and read more, but read stuff you actually like and not stuff you feel pressured to read. i love high brow litfic as much as the next pretentious english major, but i started writing a ton after reading a bunch of kindle unlimited romance because it was fun and it got me inspired
2. watch well written television for dialogue and pacing. people do not talk in proper english, they donât say things eloquently, and thereâs a lot of filler and fluff. thatâs good! thatâs real, so i love well written tv to show me how itâs done
3. get comfortable writing in weird ways. for years i used to sit down and be like âah okay so chapter oneâ and then i was stuck, stalled out, and just felt bad about the process. when i started writing both aurora and tnt, i started in the middle. i had an image of a scene in my mind (for tnt it was actually the claim attempt) and i just wrote it out and then bounced around later
4. outlines are your friend! sometimes iâll get a random line of dialogue in my head or an image but that doesnât mean iâm ready to write it. i throw it in one big outline so i donât lose it.
5. if youâre wanting to write really good smut i have two suggestions but please only do this to your personal comfort level. this is what works for me but do not make yourself uncomfortableâ for good smut, i watch porn for reference and for good dirty talk, i listen to nsfw audio. i like to really write the visuals for smut and make it immersive but lol i havenât experienced everything ive written about and logistics of the body are hard!! i usually find a video or an audio and let that help guide the imagery im writing.
6. be comfortable with the editing process. i know the temptation to post something the minute you finish it is there, but sleep on it. come back and edit it, read the dialogue out loud if you have to. i swear youâll make the piece better just by leaving it and coming back.
7. donât be afraid to post. most people are kind, and the worst thing that will happen is you donât get a lot of notes. thatâs okay, itâs a process.
8. research! as iâm writing anything, even a silly little oneshot, im doing research on something. i am hyper aware that im not korean and have never spoken korean or lived in korea, so for my fic i try my hardest to ground elements of that in reality. i truly cannot tell you how many hours ive spent reading like korean case law on revenge porn just for like 3 lines of dialogue. and you donât have to go that crazy, iâm arguably too intense, but i do think some of that helps the story and the dialogue feel real.
9. describe something real- every place in my writing is based on something real. every apartment, hotel, cafe, venue, etc., theyâre all either something iâve found online or drawn from my life and use that to my advantage. i use apartment listings and save photographs, i do google map walks to see what neighborhoods look like, anything to get the feel of a place or an experience. for the christmas chapters of aurora, i watched hours of gwangju walking tour videos on youtube while i was writing just to understand how to describe their walk in the snow. it really helps me to have a visual that i can put words to.
10. find your weak points and see what other writers do differently. if you want to improve, you should find a small place to start. is it dialogue? overall plot? smut? etc. - iâll never forget being on a creative writing retreat, and a very important writing professor said to me âeverything you write is very pretty but you havenât said anything. you have to decide to say something.â that feedback hurt, but sent me down a much better writing path when i realized where i was falling short and not challenging myself.
okay i hope some of this was helpful and if itâs a mess im sorry im on mobile. i really just love writing so deeply and will always talk about it, so i hope this was helpful đ
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i am normal and can be asked about the relic of the lost franklin expedition's known as the peglar papers. i am fine and can be asked about it no i will not cry (starts fucking BAWLING)
#the heron speaketh#henry peglar#the terror#im haivgng. a moment#*looks at my url* wow no shit sherlock#ive been thinking a lot about that video i watched and ive been looking at the papers themselves#theyre up online on the royal museums greenwich website i have been sitting here#looking. at them all#god damn it is impossiblet o read but im getting very emotional aboutt he whole thing i might go on a tangent in a reblog
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I wish I never made eye contact with you.
RAAGHHHHHHH LET'S SEE THIS THING REACH 13 NOTES!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOOOOO THANK YOU FOR ALL OF YOU WHO ARE HERE I HOPE Y'ALL ARE HAVING A GOOD EVENING!!!!!!
TROLLS NOIRE AU BY THE AMAZING @artroc-ity !!!!! READ COLD CASE OF MY HEART TODAY!!!!!!!!!
#*siiighhhhh*i want someone to look at me. it doesn't even have to be that look chaz is giving hickory i just want someone to look at me#and think deeply about me for more than 5 seconds#just trhink about meeeeeee#whatever. someone is probably thinking about me right now#i mean a lot to a lot of people and i love all of them#i hope im not just some random tumblr user..... but a memorable random tumblr user....#okay enough monologing have somr gay yearning#are they going to punch eachother after this? are they gonna make out? will they just continue on in comfortable silence?#thats your choice#IM REALLY FUCKING PROUD OF MYSELF AND I LOVE THIS COLORING STYLE!!!!!#ITS STYLISH. ITS MOODY. AND EVEN BETTER ITS CHEAP!!!!#ive also been watching a lot of extremely useful videos about composition & in this specific piece i used all the knowledge ive gathered!#life is so beautiful. my art is wonderful. and im getting better and better#i hope one day i'm able to make commissions for people with traditional art#i'll send the actual sheets of paper#i wanna do that so bad#i need to open an etsy#trolls#chaz trolls#hickory trolls#chaz#hickory#chazcory#chickory#trolls noire au#tea art đ¨#Spotify#oklo makes a post
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I've got too many games I want to play and not enough free time đ I still need to finish my BG3 playthrough but since Endless Ocean: Luminous came out I've been playing a lot of that instead. Also just got back into Wizard101 last night. Started playing House Flipper again last weekend. Still need to finish BOTW so I can start a TOTK playthrough and finish Pokemon Shield so I can start on Pokemon Violet. I've been fighting off the urge to start up a new Skyrim playthrough for weeks. My brother just told me that Paper Mario: The Thousand Year Door is getting ported to the Switch. And now I'm suddenly feeling inspired to replay DAI... And throughout all of this I'm also playing the hell out of DragonVale on my phone. Someone just pay me to play video games all day please
#and before anyone suggests it: no i cant try to get into streaming#the way i play video games is extremely frustrating for other people to watch ahdjsksl#no one is going to give me money for producing a video where i spend two hours checking every barrel in the map while juggling my inventory#and then immediately give up on a puzzle and just sit in silence for 30 minutes while i look up a walkthrough instead#i need a situation that pays me $200 a day just to be autistic at the screen alone in the comfort of my own home#rambling#a few years ago i made it a mission to play all of the dragon age games and dlcs in order and i did not complete it#i got all the way to inquisition before i quit#i had already played it on ps3 but i wanted to replay on my new gaming laptop and unfortunately my computer decided it was too complicated#and also i just wanted to play as an elf again and i was resisting that urge bc i played as an elf the first time and wanted something new#so i didnt connect to my character as much#BUT ive learned a lot about optimizing my games from getting bg3 to run on my computer#so i think i could get it to handle dai now. especially if i upgrade to ssd like ive been wanting#and i just saw a dai post on my dash that made me daydream about possible characters and i was struck with inspiration#when i first played through on ps3 i didnt know anything about da lore. it was my first dragon age game#i was just doing whatever i thought seemed coolest#so i basically modeled my inquisitor after my dnd oc and then just picked a vallaslin i thought was pretty#and then when it came time to pick a specialization i was just like 'i mean my hand has rift magic right? seems obvious enough'#but now i know the LORE. and the dalish really interest me. and i want to make an inquisitor thats their own character#i didnt want to replay another elf mage bc i thought it would be too similar#but at the same time i wanted to re-experience dai (and experience trespasser for the first time) now that i knew more about the dalish#(with mods that fix the annoying bits where your character seems to not know about their own religion of course lol...)#i was thinking about that and i just got hit with some inspiration#instead of 'my dnd character but with a cool tattoo and rift magic and they kinda roll with the inquisitor stuff bc idk whats going on'#what if i made a more intentional character with a much different personality and their own backstory#theyre still the first of their clan but i know what that means now so theyre not really into the herald of andraste stuff#theyre a devotee of falon'din with his vallaslin and fittingly choose necromancy specialization (tho theyre annoyed by all the maker talk)#they can look cool and goth and maybe they even make some different choices about the well of sorrows đ#i could keep rambling but im running out of tags gah#anyways ive got lots of ideas now and i think the playthrough would be unique enough to be worth it
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sorry for reblogging fugly trends from 2012 it's for my enrichment
#have i ever told u guys about my early 2010s fashion and pop culture fixation#i got a gen you ine aeropostle skirt recently ive never been happier#also gonna try and get my hands on some freshtops tanks#eventually#also their shorts though ive only found one secondhand listing in my size#i need the naked1 pallet or i'll die#its funny to me because like#yes within fashionblogging and lifestyle teen youtube girls from that era#consummerism was a massive thing (it still is but its so obvious when you look at blog archives and videos from that era)#youtubers with non disclosed sponsorships#bethany mota and amanda steele vaguely saying âthis brand sent me this product to give to you guys!â#it was really just watching the birth of what we know as influencers today and its really interesting to me#theres a lack of cuts theres a lack of scripting theres long tangents#people were only just then realizing you can make money via haul videos and makeup tutorials#bethany mota had a fashion line at aeropostle purely because of her status as a youtuber#there was a big rise at the time of people being against flaunting overpriced designer during that time because of the recession#but there was still a hugggeee hold with consumerism and classism#hauls with brandy and f21 and ae like i cant afford that im sure you cant afford $600 at american eagle on a weekly basis#i have lots of thoughts idk#anyways backtracked#i think its funny because here i am talking about how horribly i need b&bw and vs pink#but like its all secondhand shit for $15 online now#nobody wants this stuff!!!!!! cycles!!! capitalism!!!! i dont know you get what i mean!!!!!!!!!!!#skyler posting
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god I know this is like The Wrong Stance on AI. I know its not about whether the art is Real and Human or If It Has A Soul and how a lot of the arguments against it are the same bullshit arguments people made against digital art like I Know. I Knowwww. but god, I'm really sorry, not to post like one of those annoying poetry bloggers I cant stand (yall are valid, live your truth, theres nothing wrong with what you post I'm just a petty bitch who hates poetry. unless I dont hate it.)
But theres just something about the way AI art will almost certainly never be able to mimic the exact way my pencil leaves an indentation in the paper, the way some of the lines I can never fully erase cause I pressed too hard, theyll have to at least train them to draw with a physical pencil first, and sure, they could train it to draw with a pencil and even erase the exact same piece I drew, line for line, on a piece of paper with a robot arm powered by AI, but they can't replicate. idk. the lineage of lefty bitches in my family, and the way I grew up going through school with my entire left arm silver with graphite, from doodling on my schoolwork. not yet anyway. but I guess I do live for the day we make the ai sentient enough that we can traumatize it by giving it homework after kneecapping its executive functions so it copes by drawing a big tiddy lobster monster. sure
#toy txt post#reblogs OFF i dont trust yall to be normal with this one i do NOT want it getting notes#i posted part of this before in a chat to a friend but im feeling it again. so#i havent drawn my big tiddy lobster bitch in awhile i should draw her again#also yea SORRY im sure this is The Wrong Feeling To Have About AI but also sometimes im a little grateful that i dont think my style is#smth a lot of the ppl coding ai to make art find to be worth trying to replicate except maybe as like a fake progress shot on a piece#which is smth i used to be really insecure about. how unfinished all my art looks bc it isnt to the point i cant fucking watch#like speedpaints and shit bc i just start feeling stupidly insecure about all the points in the video where I Would Have Stopped and been#like. im not touching it anymore i dont want to ruin it#and ive been insecure about my inability to really do digital art with like a stylus and shit like the way i do it with a pencil#and i know that is just me needing to Practice it but being too frustrated by it#anyway i know its just a Tool and its Fine and the problem is the art theft and the labor problems of it but liiiiiiike#i just.#im sure there will be unique things and usages of ai as a tool and i genuinely hope that ppl can figure out a way to make one that isnr#isnt* just full of stolen content bc theres unique fuckin shit about like digital art programs u can write stupid poetry that you hate#about it. or stupid poetry that i hate. cos im the poetry hater. listen. i cant stress this enough: its fine. youre fine. keep posting your#poetry and reblogging shit that speaks to you. im just a Bitch okay Ignore Me#i should go draw bokrae like. eating a computer about this#the real reason for that graphics card shortage was bokrae ate them all when she was in the mood for a crunchy snack
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furudate was really onto something when they modeled keiji after the rufous legged owl
#at first i couldnt really see a resemblance between the two#but after studying them and drawing them a bit more?#that owl is keiji. keiji is that owl i cant believe i missed it#this poor little fella looks so tired and sick of everything in so many pictures online like thats an akaashi owl if ive ever seen one#AND THE EYEBROWS???? THE SHORT RUFFLED FEATHERS????#copied over perfectly to keijis design what else is there to say#been doing lots of owl studying bc haikyuu brainrot is that strong. favourite owl is the one saru is named after#BECAUSE IT HAS PINK EYELIDS. ITS THE ONLY OWL TO HAVE PINK EYELIDS#AND THEYRE SO PINK TOO ITS FABULOUS#also finally got around to watching the video of that northern white faced owl shrinking and puffing itself up that is 100 percent konoha#anyways 9 year old me picked up a book about owls during library time one day and that forever changed my life#coincidence that my favourite team (other than karasuno) is the owls? i think not#rambling about stuff
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I gotta be less hard on myself. Annoyingly i know that my best work comes from when i am hard on myself. But i keep stopping myself from doing things i want to due to perfectionism. Annoying.
#atm i feel like im just chasing interest after interest after interest#ive been working on my mimecraft base a lot but i have. complex feelings about the base atm#im happy with it and its paradise.#its too paradise that it makes me unsettled#which is nonsense its my place and my build#but i feel a lot of pressure to make it perfect#even though I and vee are the only ones who go there and i dont really care about the likes on my posts anymore#it still makes me feel. odd.#i love the work though i love the style and i love using it as a means to imagine a better world#atm im really enjoying just spending time on the server hanging out with vee#but i get into my own head a lot about the base#its not even just the base im talking about everything but the base is the example#i built a bit of a weird interior today i just went crazy with the terracotta and the plants and a pool of water#and i keep thinking on if it was the 'right' thing to do#and if i will be able to complete it properly to a high enough standard#it also doesnt help that ive improved over the course of the last 2 years in building#so now my house looks off and weird and theres trees that need to be taken down and paths that are over textured#but i find the process of doing it and the feeling of completion really deep and important#i dont know. i feel like im constantly in a battle of pushing myself to be better but limiting myself at the same time by having fun or sthn#i feel like i should be making youtube videos or at least prepping to#but i havent because i cant figure out how to organise mods and its freaking me out. theres just loads of excuses stopping me#i dont know.#the annoying thing is pushing myself creatively has resulted in massive benefits for me lately creatively#partly i think why im feeling odd with the base atm is because ive suddenly gone for being barely able to play an hour a night to having all#the time in the world so its created a sudden influx in development#idk. this is rambly#fish talks#i want to download a minec@ft map and remove the suburban housing to replace with higher density properties becsuse ive been watching too#much socialist urban planning videos again and c1t1es skyl1nes just isnt cutting the cheese rn#thats the wrong saying. fandoms censored to avoid crosstagging
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@ those tf2 server related tags: the lazypurple silly servers still exist. and if you want a silly-adjacent server that still has killing/pvp enabled then they also have a "TDM" server where objectives are disabled so you really just get to dick around
i figured his servers would still be around, although i don't think i ever had personally played on his servers before. i think i've seen some videos of them in the past though.
the two servers i use to hang around in through 2012-2016 were mostly just... hang-out servers? the term i refer to them as is "hub servers", similar to like... hub levels in platformers. one was a big city server where i met a good ammount of my friends on, the other was a server with maps the server owner created, which is also the server that hosted one of my maps. they had some sourcemods in common like the jetpack plugin.
im not sure if i could personally experience the vibes of those servers in the same way these days. granted anytime i play tf2 these days, it's usually to play casual, haven't touched any community servers in a long time.
#ask#anon#theres a channel ive been subbed to on youtube that made the uhh... meet the random fortress videos#those videos give me nostalgia in a way i cant describe#cause like the two servers i mentioned didnt have that exact extreme vibes going on.#but thats what it felt like to play those servers sometimes#like i see those videos and i imagine thats how the golden machine gun server was back in 2008 or so.#i never played on that server for context. but i watched plenty of videos from their channel#the golden machine gun also brings back the nostalgia of a server having custom maps specific to that server#like you couldnt experience those maps anywhere else.#those kind of maps i think honestly inspired me to get into mapping#that. and the second server listed above had maps that kinda looked not great. and i wanted to make a map that looked nicer.#i dont agree with that sentiment in going about making maps now. but thats what got me into mapping.#im told that server hosted the map i made a lot. like it was a really popular map even after i stopped hanging out there#idk. i guess what im getting at is that theres a certain magic to the servers i use to play that idk if ill ever experience the same again#thats not to say it cant be recreated or remade exactly. its just idk if i could experience it the same.#id have to be around a lot of folks from friendshow. whom of which are folks i met from those servers#though not a lot of us play live tf2 that actively these days. ive mostly been playing cause my current computer runs it well now#and ive just been having fun playing casual.... for the most part. and also customizing my guys#im okay at the game these days. ranging from pretty good to okay in most matches.#sometimes i kinda want to be in a server where i can just look pretty and fuck about.#im sure maybe ill find a place some day. ik the servers exist. i just havent really tried exploring any#i think my experience to those servers are similar to roblox servers i use to hang around in as a kid in 2008-2009#if anyone remembers uhh... space cruise v3 or whatever. thats the vibes i want to achieve for a map some day.#like youre just in a big space cruiser with your own personal room and you can do jobs to get money and buy furnature#and just mill about and shit. too bad that world doesnt really work anymore with robloxs code changes since 2007....#anyway thank you for telling me anon! i do appreciate it!!
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I've officially reached net zero information on the kimba controversy. Like wow i love the lion king let's see what other people on the internet have to say about it! Oh no looks like they ripped off some Japanese kids show for this huh that sucks. Wait up tho upon further inspection it looks like they just took some heavy inspiration from it but marketing purposefully obfuscated that so while this is most likely not as bad as it seems at first it's still kind of sucks they did that. Wait actually these scenes that everyone cites as too similar to the lion king are actually from a movie that was released 3 three years after the lion king. Ok but apparently this movie has been stuck in development since the 80s bcs disney purposefully sabotaged it so it wouldn't compete with their movie. Wait actually this is apparently a totally unsubstantiated claim with no proof. I guess all that happened here is that there's two franchises that are about cartoon lions being the rulers of something. Now that's not very exciting is it
#yea i just watched the yms kimba video and that's uh yeah. i guess that settles that#imean I've been reading about this for quite some time bc it's always circulating somewhere#and ive already arrived at the conclusion that this is something that's being wildly blown out of proportion a while ago#i didn't consume all the kimba content tho bc theres way too much. seems like no one who talks about this bothered to check either#i watched the 97 movie tho and uh. was a bit surprised that that was nothing like tlk at all.#like ppl mention this movie specifically a lot. these are two 90ish minute movies it's not that much effort to watch em both for comparison#i do think that disney should have cited tezuka as an inspiration the way they handled it was shitty bc they (corporate) suck#but this is like.. if they had just said yea next to hamlet and bambi and whatnot kimba was one of the many things that helped inspire tlk#it should have been fine#looks like both corps are profiting from the free marketing this whole discussion keeps giving them so if anything they're deliberately#fanning the flames.#the lion king
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i want a neopets nostalgia website you can't log into, it just always looks like you're logged in to the original site circa late 2000s and the main purpose of the fansite is just to recreate the feeling of going onto neopets to do your dailies as a kid. you can click around the world map, and take something from the omelet even though you don't have an account and thus an inventory, and you can spin the wheels, and you can go look in the shops even though you cant really buy anything, and you can go play the old flash games because they've been converted somehow, and maybe there's even a fabricated issue of the neopian times you can check. like it's all very simplified and obviously entire sections of the site like the battle dome would be missing, but you can Get That Feeling again just by poking around. no accounts, so no logging in needed and no large server space or cybersecurity required for the host (not that the real neopets ever had the latter), i just want to click on little secrets on the world map and play the hannah trilogy or ice cream factory or caves & corridors again
#i watched the neopets controversies history video like two weeks ago and ive been thinking about neopets ever since#feel like shit just want her back....#i have literally 0 clue what the site looks like now but i bet its Very Different#and i know a lot of games got lost in the flash conversion#like ive been tempted to make an account just to poke around one more time but 1) i hate making accounts#and 2) they have proven that they cannot handle the pressure of not giving your info out#i want to experience mcdonalds in-the-game era neopets again you feel me#in my perfect vision for this website even the random encounters are scripted into the pages with a boosted chance of occuring#since you're not going to be on the site long and they like. all have static references like its always One Pet In The Code that gets sick#or This Item that gets given or stolen#so it would be a lot simpler and still work with a dummy account page#but it would be there.... like even the money tree would be there just on a static cycle#that would be greatly reduced from how it worked actually lol#also does ANYBODY remember the game with the berries where you tried to get as many of them together as possible i cant remember the name#(also im going to continue gathering replies on that thing for a bit so you get neopets posting instead)#words and things#update: i went to the neopets website and its literally links to their merch and shit#i mean i know theres content there once you log in but wheres MY neopets!!
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tbt - exo - lotto // eojjeona i just hit the lotto đłđłđł
#uwu#add exo in 2016 to my list of weird lesbian 'god-i-wish-that-were-me's#man if i were in exo i would get so much pussy i would be drowning in pussy#i dont even want to be drowning in pussy perse i just think this looks great#diana and i been listening to a lot of exo and talkin about em a lot#was this really 7 years ago have i really been into kpop for 8 years now#i havent talked about this on here in years but after call me baby came out i would obsessively watch that video on repeat#several times a day every day for weeks i was transfixed by it#i really think if it hadnt been for exo in 2015 i dont think id ever have gotten into kpop#and genuinely i'd have been a very different person if not for it#theres been a take about exo ive been sittng on for at least over a year now#and i may feel able to articulate it soon at the risk of pissing people off bc i have been thinking about it#anyway yeah exo are the most valid kpop group to listen to although admittedly not the most fun to stan#love them tho most of them i mean except for eh uhh ahem er#christopher boo#exo#tbt#kpop#song rec#shut up kaily#q'd 5/10/2023
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#personal#does anyone else feel like its a little bit#6 years without uploading they come back with some ads#cant make unsponsored vids its bout getting that bag#is this just me? i support making bank however one can in this world but it does feel like#like its just a lot yknow? like the frequency of any genuine video made for passion instead of money#they just seem few and far between. im sure theres a dragon contract or something but im so fucking sick of hearing about flamesusan tbh#hm whatever consider this my overstimulated need to have a pissed off rant about something today but it feels weird#the channel feels weird đ i still very much admire and respect the boys and i support them supporting their lifestyle#idk how to explain it just feels like theres a looot of ads and very little genuine enjoyment from creating lately like the last#idk 7 or 8 months ive noticed it but maybe its always been like this. or maybe its been like this since the revival idfk im so tired dudes#im so fucking sick to death of living in an internet world and not being able to go even 10 minutes without an ad#or a double ad or an ad right before a sponsor segment or just fucking. its just fucking EVRYWHERE I WANT TO BURN EARTH DOWN AND START AGAIN#nuke it the second anyone invents ads again and keep restarting until we eliminate themmmmmm FUCK#like i just want the comfort content of their voices and personalities but its continuously interrupted#and their personalities dont seem to hold the same level of compassion or passion these days#and surely these things must be related. like the internet will miss yall if you left but its okay to stop youtube. its okay to find#literally any other job if being payed to pretend to care about a pixel dragon and finding any uncreative excuse to make a video#just for the sole purpose of going around your advertisement (so you can claim youre making content and give them a reason to keep sponsorin#if that aint it for you chief then do literally anything else with your time. find employment elsewhere#i know a lot of the tubers and esp the ones that have been doing it for so long think they mighnt be able to get or do any other job#but i promise this just isnt true!#make from the heart again! now that youre not being straight you should have the most freedom to create from the heart!#but theyre not! it feels more repressed and in the closet than the actual time they were in the closet! (or though they were we been knew)#but it feels! so uncomfortable! so unnatural! the videos theyve been making lately feel like theyre aliens hiding in skinsuits#desperately trying to make video advertisements about products their top researchers have assured them that humans like!#but they cant make a whole video of just ad because humans dont like that so put some other crap in there. just enough#to make the stupid humans THINK theyre not just watching an ad. content? no doesnt matter just do some garbage for a few mins#humans are idiots theyll watch anything just try not to look so uncomfortable in your human suits so it seems natural#but it doesnt feel natural. it feels gross and fake and bad. and worse because they are. or rather were. comfort content for me
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me in 2019: yeah no i wouldnât call myself an âold soulâ i think my interests are fairly relevant. i donât think iâd ever be one. me in 2024: .do yuo guys remember flappy bird and rainbow loom and minecraft letsplays and the dab and those shirts with the sequins and the cold shoulders on them and nightcore and animation memes and fidget spinners and vine and the area 51 raid and the day everyone posted chimneys and those memes where it was a character surrounded by heart emojis with some kind of motion blur around it and the magic card memes and funny reaction images and that thing everybody did where they put their arms in their sweaters and it made them look like little chickens or that one person with the hoodie who pulled the string things in all the way so it only showed their lips and then put sunglasses on over it so it looked like a funny face and. and. do you wanna see my cd collection or my books. can i have a physical copy of that book. i prefer my headphones to have wires thank u very much. yeah man i really want a flip phone or like. a refurbished older cell.
#sorry for getting really sentimental about the 2010s (and mentioning some 2000s stuff)#it will probably happen again#look man#i get some of these things are still around#but they dont feel the same#idk it just feels like ppl used to be a lot nicer??#like i think ppl have gotten too comfortable with just being cynical and mean all the time#i havent met one person my age who gets excited about the new year anymore. not even people my parentsâ age or my cousinsâ ages#the future seemed really bright but now it feels like nobody sees it that way anymore??#and i get it#shit happens#its fine to be upset with the world! ive been there a lot#but i feel like we as a society can benefit from being a little less doom and gloom all the time#like. covid really caused a huge cultural shift#earlier today i saw a video that was talking about how we dont really have any good comedy movies to have come out in the past couple of yr#which are dedicated comedies. and how people are leaning more towards drama with some funny bits#and like. thats the main reason why ive been thinking about all this stuff#that and the fact that youtube is recommending me videos from my 5+ year old âwatch laterâ playlist#like no thanks youtube i dont wanna watch âmorgzâs mom went bankruptâ#anyway maybe im just uncomfortable with the passage of time and how things change#buildings get renovated trees get cut down playgrounds get replaced mall stores close sites shut down etc etc#it makes me sad and mad about the fact that i cant do anything about it and dont know what to do about how i feel#sorry for the random rant i just have a lot of feels rn
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365 Days of Writing Prompts: Day 338
Adjective: Scrawny
Noun: Wolves
Definitions for those who need/want them:
Scrawny: (of a person or animal) unattractively thin and bony; (of vegetation) meager or stunted
Wolves: wild carnivorous mammals of the dog family, living and hunting in packs that are native to both Eurasia and North America but have been widely exterminated; used in names of mammals similar or related to the wolf, e.g. maned wolf, Tasmanian wolf; used figuratively to refer to rapacious, ferocious, or voracious people or things; (informal) men who habitually seduces women; harsh or out-of-tune effects produced when playing particular notes or intervals on a musical instrument, caused either by the instrument's construction or by divergence from equal temperament
#i made a promise to myself to try my best to post this on the day its supposed to be posted#so here we are (mostly on time)#my day has consisted of watching video essays (as mentioned in the tags of my previous prompt)#and thinking a lot about my own video essays that ive been contemplating for a bit now#you will likely hear more about that in the (hopefully) near future#anyhoo despite how sad this prompt sounds im rather excited about it#mainly because it makes me think of a wip ive (again) been contemplating for a bit now#and anytime i think i can tie one of my pieces to another one of my pieces i get very excited#im really looking forward to it#thanks for reading#writing#writer#creative writing#writing prompt#writeblr#trying to be a writeblr at least
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#what is it with me and going down rabbitholes of âtrans is a social contagionâ content#is it a social contagion? have kids in liberal areas of the country been convinced that being trans is a cool club they can join?#all the posts and videos about coming out choosing a name changing pronouns going on hormones getting surgery is it functioning to#over-glorify transition and frame it as this exciting cool fun hashtag epic little adventure with few downsides??? is that whatâs happening?#i donât know. and im tired.#i think thereâs probably some truth to it i guess. i imagine there are some young impressionable people who are met with all of this Content#and over time they go âhuh yeah i guess that seems funâ#but like. i know a lot of cis/cis-adjacent people who have watched me rave about all my little transsexual happy moments#like binding and getting on hormones#and theyâve just celebrated me. for years. with no inclination to start actually enacting changes on their own bodies or presentation#then again thatâs just anecdotal#ive always found myself taking offense to the nontransitioning nbs of the world. a lot of the ones that i know will talk to me like weâre#the same#and itâs like babes im sorry but weâre not the same you make quirky jokes about being None Gender and i cry because my voice isnât lower#i just feel like a lot of younger trans kidsâ âtrans experienceâ begins and ends with a change of name and pronouns and maybe wardrobe#and thatâs fine!!! i donât give a flying fuck! do whatever you want forever! i will always call you whatever you wanna be called! always!!!!#but. a part of me is curious as to like. how many of those kids were just attracted to this because it looked cool or fun or novel#thereâs this thing i saw somewhere about how a lot of young white men are radicalized because theyâre kind of desperate for a struggle#or a passion of some sort#and i wonder sometimes if something similar is happening here#because the vast VAST majority of âtenderqueersâ (term makes me ick but it gets the point across) from what ive seen come from#very privileged backgrounds. almost always rich or at least financially well off and white#i know that im probably activating every alarm by going âhmmm non-binary is like neonaziâ but thatâs not what i mean i prommy#just like at its core perhaps thereâs this inherent need in adolescents to have something to fight for#something that can make their lives feel like a journey they wanna take so they can feel in control#im spouting pure fucking nonsense. look itâs 4am and im feeling contemplative. about this dumb shit.#i need to fix my sleep schedule so bad i feel so shitty recently#and itâs definitely at least in part due to how late im staying up.#whatever.
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